Saturday, November 17, 2007
"Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live."
I used to think I could start every entry with some clever quote, like the above, and expound from there onto some rich, fulfilling topic.
Just another thing I have quit.
Today I gave my notice at my job. For some time, and for some back story, I have felt under appreciated, overworked, and uncomfortable at work. Part of it, I think, was that I was getting a lot of recognition from the customers, and very little from my boss. In fact, it got to be so I would get a compliment from a customer, and my boss would go out of his way to knock it down. This part, at least, I am certain of.
And I thought that when I left, or rather when I told of my leaving, any good will I had gained through my hard work and dedication, both of which I think I gave of freely, would go out the window, and he would be mean, even petty. It is a side of him many other people have seen. I have watched him unleash it on plenty of people.
But, in this, I was wrong. He instead told me he was very sorry, if not surprised, to see me go. He felt that things were great. He also told me I would be missed, and he would have a hard time replacing me. He felt we grew close from working together, and hoped only the best for me.
And perhaps, as far off as I was on his reaction, these two things can be reconciled. His lack of perception as to WHY I would feel as uncomfortable, and his lack of acknowledgement of it when I told him is the reason why it was the way it was. He sees things only through his terms, and only as they relate to him. Even, I think, my leaving, was seen as to how he would replace me (not very well) and the timing (the fastest part of the year) for the store. He would not acknowledge I might have thought the job would be more than it was, or that I would eventually get the full weight of responsibility, without the micromanagement. It did not occur to him, and so would not occur to him.
But the response, nonetheless, caught me off guard. And it got me thinking about my large part in all this. I can look back and say I have tried to talk to him about these things, but I cannot honestly say I tried hard. I assumed he would be unreceptive, and indeed I still feel he would. I thought by bringing everything to the fore, I would be exposing myself too much for such a close work environment. I still think that is the case. But had I brought this up as soon as I felt it, and had he responded as he just did, would we be here?
The bottom line is, perhaps we would. I have the need for different hours and more pay, neither of which he could offer. I have the need for a bit more freedom, and a bit less scrutiny, neither of which the job would allow. And, since I am journaling here more than anything, I have a problem with authority, especially loud, pushy authority, which he is. I place no blame for that, or at least I endeavor not to, because it is his store, and he can run it how he sees fit. But it is truth, and it was more than I could bear.
And I felt a little too much ownership in that store, in how well it was doing, and let myself forget that I was just an employee, even if, and such it was, I was the reason for that success. And I let myself judge him as a person too much, and not enough as an owner, which allows for far less judging to begin with.
In short, the change is good for me. I will be more detached, and I will have less on my shoulders. But, when thinking about the change, I never thought it would be like this. And when I hold the mirror up to this situation, I can see where I could have handled it as I see myself, and not as I am.
Maybe I should have started with this quote.
If you cannot mould yourself as you would wish, how can you expect other people to be entirely to your liking?
Ok, Alex, as the only ex-pat I know, you have to explain this one to me. Anyone else can jump in, too.
How is it that every Canadian I talk to tells me that the Cost of Goods Sold (COGS) is so much cheaper here than in Canada, yet their dollar is worth more than ours?
The other indicators, Housing and unemployment, are also better here. Who the hell decides this stuff? If a pair of skates cost 500 here, and 800 there, the dollar is NOT the same.
C'mon. You can't just SAY it's worth more. Or can you?
Monday, November 05, 2007
Finally, I have some good news to report about a Minnesota team.
First, we beat a solid, if underperforming, squad in the San Deigo Chargers last night. And we did it convincingly. The defense only allowed ten points, and the offense scored 35.
But what was amazing, and what made the contest fun to watch, was the way Adrian Peterson was running.
I am on record saying we needed a quarterback, not a runningback, in last year's draft. While I liked this kid from the get go, I thought we would need better throwing to win. I am still right, we are 3-5 because Jackson can't get the ball down the field. But, I am glad we got this guy. He has a chance to be the best there ever was.
Don't believe me? Just take a look at what he did yesterday: rushing for 296 yards, and three TDs. That first number is not the NFL record for a game, beating Jamal Lewis' 295.
It gives him 1036 rushing yards, on pace to crush the rookie record of 1808 held by Eric Dickerson. It also gives him a chance at the single season record of 2105, also held by dickerson.
He has 8 touchdowns, needing 10 more in 8 contests to break THAT rookie record. He already has the rookie record for 200+ yard games, and needs two more to tie the record for a single season by any player.
And these are the first 8 games, people! He seems to be getting smarter; wiating for his blockers to set up better than the begining of the year, and hitting his cuts a touch faster (if such a thing is possible) He makes the first taclker miss always, and is a threat every single time he touches the ball.
We will not win anything of importance this year, and we won't even make the playoffs. But we do have something in Peterson that gives fans a hope for the future. If this is the track he is on, and we can add a piece here and there, we can become a quality franchise for years and years to come.
IN OTHER NEWS
The Timberwolves are off to the start we all thought they would make: 0-2. What we didn't know was how good they would look losing. Both games have been close loses to good squads, and both games have had us leading by good margins. The inability to finsih games is a sign of poor coaching and inexperience. One of those can be fized with time, one with balls...The Patriots/Colts game lived up to the biling. It was probably the best contest between equally matched teams we have seen in awhile. Let's hope the post-season features these two again...T.O. seems to have calmed down, and gave a post-game interview that was full of praise and even (gasp) self-deprication. Is this the new T.O.? Let's hope so. A guy with that much talent is hard not to like, and he needs to stop giving the media reasons...The 100th episode of Family guy was OK, but not great. The recap of the first 99 was better, and McFarlane had some funny spots with interviewees. One idiot, though, said she "Didn't want people to see [Family Guy] and think that's what all americans were like." Really? People are going to judge us by our cartoons? Someone needs to shoot her, and throw her off a boat.